All writing on this page is authored by AEL.
This DevotionYour essence winds inextricably
Among the elements of my being It is the ions through my nerves The mitochondria in my cells The image through my eyes And the beauty within my awareness It's the contents of your soul I burn for The gossamer light you leave behind Vapor trails of wisdom Flowing even in silence I walk on water in your wake FlareGrow me a rose
Painted in fire It still won't match the wonders Glimmering within your aura Frontal CollisionReflecting on your gaze
My mind burns in brilliant flare. Time cherished. Wisdom missed. Embracing destruction without rebirth. One fleeting chapter leaves A silhouette shimmered in frost. LinksI opened my chain
to add another link. The link failed. The chain broke. I patched it with a padlock to forge another link. Then discovered the padlock too strong for the chain. AkoiromanticThe most I can do is appreciate you
Share kindness and laughter Stay quiet and functional Keep out from underfoot My love will come from duty Adding flare to tiny things Making myself better Putting service first I've been here before I know not to push To feel, but not touch Or play cards from the heart My attention is devotion Each act a prayer When you notice me the least I will love you the most In utility, lies my intimacy Your joy, my benediction Write-OffSometimes your best is someone else's garbage.
There is nothing you can do about it. You can appeal to better senses and still find them absent. Or you can dust it off, polish it, And find someone who likes it, anyway. HeteronormativeYour eyes glint
of promises written in molten silk Cravings shimmer from scruples worn thin Fingers dip and trace pools of past auroras while speaking absently Avoiding memories Proclivities Things we're not to do Beliefs took over Fear spoke A buyer's remorse Hastily prescribed destiny discarding what we still deny ourselves Intimate salvation StaleThis place is so foreign now
There is no comfort The feet long to wander The skin wants for space A place to claim from new and strange Energy to flow undaunted Even to waste Familiar plays Over and over Stagnant and crusted Feeding the restless Starving the mind Light brings promise Dimmed by commitment Obligations and toil Anchor reality down Goals impeded Dreams put off Grindstones break horizons And callus the eye To the way out A Light is GoneWhat is the purpose
of all this beauty you've shown me Clarity revealed What I came to believe That I could finally heal and thrive That you were here again The eyes I gazed into and the face I knew You stood and beckoned And turned your back A light is gone Things we fluff our minds with Which we try to believe Rocking and chanting, scared and alone Dabbing over wounds Packing bruises Turning a shiny face to the world Pretending 'I'm alright.' We distract ourselves Clinging to fringe and not the fabric Saying things that make it better Knowing fully they're lies Empty words from false wisdom Stopping embarrassment in public Avoiding explaining ourselves Not sharing blood with others We forget reality We 'buck up.' We say things like, "Good for him!" Or, "She deserves to be happy." Or, "It wasn't my time." We smile. We wax And pretend we don't care It doesn't make us feel less robbed To look back when it's quiet Realize we knew nothing Realize it hurts like Hell And there's nothing we can fix Nothing we can do A light goes out Hope dies The torch is buried again Greenery withers and life moves on So it is done. So it shall be. The Universe cares for its own On a whim |
What's InsideI wanted to read your soul
to know its wisdom and light. To cradle if for its strength and weight and let it speak to know the sutras it paints within your heart. Heart VoiceIt is difficult to listen to your heart
when it only uses its indoor voice. It seldom waits to speak until it's quiet enough to hear. PrognosticatorShow me the patience
and the wisdom to know what's worth the wait. The consequences of decisions before they're made. Trace out the ground rich with potential where roots will grow Add the home I'll feel when I find it. Show the love coming from me shining back several fold. The partners who appreciate the goal without dismissing the work. The face of the lover who won't forget mine. And the peace in my own labor Making this world in a small way Tangible Get on ItI refuse to admit
missed chances being too old being unseasoned in matters of desire and dreams The vision is enough design and energy material and form feed from it Making something happen merely enables things already destined to occur Between inexperience and inaction the latter is the greater sin Silly Motivational LimerickI am what I am and that's all that I am
though some think I should be less. Satisfied, I am not. To survive, I forgot. My mantra is 'drive, strive, thrive.' Petty JudgementI'm glad you said what you said.
Thanks for showing your true colours. You reminded me of why I chose To stand with the people I do. So take your poison elsewhere. It isn't welcome here. My life is busy enough Without having to worry about Whom I'm 'right' to be with Or what you think of me. I'm challenged to care less About your 'love' or Whatever you call it How you were taught. I care what I think. That's really all that matters. The keyword being THINK. Something you should practice. For you have no right to judge. Whether I am or failed to be Worthy. Uncommon RestlessnessThere is no pause
At the threshold of something You can't hesitate When you don't know How high the precipice is How far you'll fall Or whether you'll fly this time Don't look down I Love YouWe forget to say the most essential thing
The thing one should never forget to say We treat it like bus fare until we don't hear it anymore When we can't say it anymore When it's bigger than we are Crouched behind anxiety Swallowed by pride Rise tomorrow, read and repeat: I love you. I love you. I love you. Save, Stifle, Hem and NagKeep off grass. Keep hands and feet inside. No left turns. No right turns when pedestrians present. Microwave in use. No shirt, no shoes, no service. No smoking. Police Line: Do not cross. Post no bills. No loitering. Turn engine off before pumping fuel. Cellular phone use prohibited. Conservative dress requested. Dress code enforced. You must be this tall to ride. No open flame. Warning: Radiation Hazard Area. No user-servicable parts. Remain seated while seatbelt sign is lit. Fire Escape: Do not block. Door to remain unlocked during business hours. Authorized personnel only. Keep door closed. No flash photography. Exact change only. Metal detectors in use. Limit phone calls to 5 minutes. No pets allowed with exception to those assiting the handicapped. No running. This is a drug-free workplace. Do not touch. No parking. No stopping or standing. Premises patrolled by armed security. Keep hands above waist and in view upon entry and exit. Identification required. Video surveilance in use. No recording devices. No more than 3 items to a dressing room. Check bags before shopping. Establishment reserves the right to search bags. Inhale. Exhale. Wash. Rinse. Repeat.
So LongLeader. Teacher. Sage.
Silent Philosopher. Benevolent Soul. You are my signal flare. My light. My guide. You are the flow of inspiration Matter and energy around me. You are are gravity which keeps me grateful For my role in this world. I treasure my connection to you Despite fear it may be over. I raise a glass and burn a candle. Sending a prayer to the Universe That someday our threads May weave a different tale. To appreciate you is to let you be. Show yourself from time to time. Share your wisdom with crimson flare But know your time and space Are still your own. Exist in peace and light. Come and go as you will. I am fine by that. |